This "getting older" stuff sure is tricky

You know, it's amazing how you find yourself looking back at various phases in your life, and realizing how different they are from where you are currently. I suppose everyone does this, and if not, they should, as I feel it's one of those mental exercises that can provide some interesting insight into one's self. I continue to be amazed at the ever changing frame of my life, and while it's not always the easy change, I have to say that at least it keeps things interesting. See, I'm the type of person that, while I do tend to find comfort in some routine in my life, I also get jaded and bored with monotony so I tend to be at my best when I'm challenged. With that said, it would be fair to say that to have a personality like this probably means that you're going to have times in your life where you feel as though you've got so many irons in the fire that there's no more room left. It's odd because the same thing that is making your life interesting and challenging is the very thing that tends to make you feel as though there's no room left for anything else. It's an unusual dichotomy. On one hand you have the "my cup runneth over" way of looking at it. On the other hand you have the "I have absolutely zero time to do anything for myself because there's too much else to do".

I'm now about 3 months into a great, new job that is absolutely giving me the mental challenge that I've been looking for. It can be exhausting at times (complete with a full work week and Saturday night "all nighters" from 8:30pm until 5:30am), but I still feel that it's the type of environment my mind was made for. It's amazing to look back at some of the places I've been, jobs I've had, people I've known, and realize that at this moment, I've ended up here, and how in some ways it's so far from where I was at various times, yet in other ways it seems like such a natural progression.

Gee, I just realized how very philosophical I'm sounding tonight. Almost over that "takes himself too seriously" line, isn't it? Ah what do you care, you're reading it anyway, quite complaining. Apart from work and life's purpose, things are great. Lily is fabulous, as you can tell from her shrine....er.....page. She's 2 and a half and we're having a great time with her. She's definitely well on her way to becoming a fabulous, interesting person, complete with plenty of opinions of a lot of things. Looking forward to the coming fall and the cooling of temperatures.

Been having some good fortune with music lately, and have even had some music placed with the Omni hotel chain, if you can believe that. I haven't had much time for music lately, but every time I get a spare 10 minutes or so, I'll add/edit some parts of various pieces that are still in progress. As I inch along, I've got several getting closer and closer to being done. I've added a couple in the last month or so to the music page, so check them out if you like. Hopefully, I'll find the pace of things slows down a bit and I'll be able to write some more and get it up there. I've been really itching to lately, as being busy seems to create an even bigger urge to write music (almost like an equation trying to balance itself.....if that's not too "Matrix") which is ironic considering that the very thing that prevents me from having the time to write music is the same things that makes me want to write music more (I guess I'm just in that oxymoron/irony vibe tonight, huh?). Anyway, we're here, and we're livinig life in every passing minute. Here's to hoping gas prices keep falling. I'll write....whever I feel like it.